‘Shitty rough drafts’ doesn’t mean your rough draft is bad, it just means:
The rough draft is the shittiest version of this story you’ll ever write.
You may feel like the rough draft you’re writing is an awful, terrible mess, but it probably isn’t as bad as you think it is. (Or you may feel that it’s a fantastic piece of writing right now, and worry what it will look like to you tomorrow.) No matter your feelings in the moment though, this story will never be worst than it is now.
It only gets better from here. Your writing only gets better from here.
So keep writing, and keep writing rough drafts, shitty or otherwise.
I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.
In fanfiction there is a difference between being a good writer and a popular writer.
Just
because you can write a well-structured story with dynamic and consistent writing and characters doesn’t mean you will be popular. And sometimes
stories that have disorganized plots, mediocre writing, and/or OOC characters will be held up as
the greatest things to ever exist.
Just because your writing isn’t
popular doesn’t mean you are a bad writer. Don’t ever compromise who
you are, who your characters are, your plot, your writing style, anything for the sake of readership.
There are popular writers everywhere.
But there are only so many good writers.